Monday, April 03, 2006
starting to miss 06s05. quite lag right, this only sank in after one whole month.
i regret not going for all the class outings. today during physics lecture elaine was sitting in front of me, then she suddenly turned around and said "you mummy very failure eh. never participate in all of our excursions". and me being me. "i need to recuperate after giving birth so many times lah! do i look like a guinea pig to you?" and of course she agreed.
so basically. i regret not spending much time with them.
cos what we shared there most definitely won't appear again in 06s04. the keepers of the library.
hmm.
feeling quite numb now. haven't felt this way for quite a long time la.
maybe i shouldn't try so hard to keep up with the class. it should be coming naturally right? given we're all around the same aggregate and everything. given 8 points is just 2 shy of 6. just 10 little marks. just 2 more marks a subject. anyway what used to be my strongest is now weakening my esteem.. chemistry. the tutorials are just flying in, piling up. rejecting so many of my solutions. physics isn't so bad. going almost by clockwork and not by interest though.
i've finally realised that no matter how i like chem, good grades won't just come without a certain iq benchmark. ms ho was right. maybe i just gotta sort out my thoughts and redirect my hidden brilliance.
haha.
it's gonna be okay.
8:35 PM
reach for
the stars(:
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